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'Anada is cat-friendly..o*`
i am not a risk taker, i do not want to convey the wrong message, if i say
something you need to understand my point of view, do not skew, miscue, i
can only say and do, my mind is jumping and running about, there are
pictures and words and they swim and swirl and i see them but i can't shout
them out, the message may be confused, you might see things differently,
you could misconstrue,
idontwantyoutothinkiamsayingsomethingthatiamnot
so i will pour it all out, here on paper, here on a screen, for all to be
seen, and it fills up from blue to grey, i understand completely, i am
painting it for you, it is the only way to make sure, to be positive, to see
without a doubt, you will not mistake me, you will know me, you will
understand me
but what if you understand me what if you know me who will i
be where can i hide what will you not know how can i be me if
someone else is a part of me
and it's a rollercoaster, it sails along, it waves, it's much to scary for
me, much too scary, much too linear, much to curved, much too predictable,
much too entropic, crazy, normal, insanity, clarity, i'm eluded but i know
who i am and i know who you are and you know who i am but i don't know
anything because it won't stay STRAIGHT
methodical.
place it here.
now you can see it.
nothing will be mistaken.
all words with no hidden meaning.
my entire life spoken without confusion.
nothing thought unless i meant it to be thought.
you will read it and you will understand.
now you can see right through me.
i've passed the message.
hollow and cold.
empty thought.
wasted.
what can a little misunderstanding hurt, why does this paranoia overshadow
all the thoughts i want to send, words are meant to be misinterpreted,
thoughts are meant to be contemplated, feelings are better debated, speak
without editing, do without controlling, act without planning, be without
dying
lying awake here dead i see the clock on the wall and it's telling me
i need to sleep this off just let it go away
changing now is useless it's never failed you've remained you and you
will always have you even if... you... have...
no one else
will anyone be looking when i let go
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