Anada 238

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· 5 years ago

  

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        and after getting caught, look away quickly.  obviously.  look busy 
 or stay silent and still.  awkwardness passes eventually.  try not to look 
 back too soon though.  will reset awarity.  and hopefully the subject of 
 girls or lack thereof or maybe should say relationships to be more general 
 for those who want to relate or something will cease sooner or later. 
 probably not though.  and not just relationships, relating to people in 
 general. 

        so hard sometimes.  just relating to friends even.  never seems to 
 happen the way i think it should.  so eventually, find someone.  and why 
 anyway?  all taught.  not as strong as some philosophers who somehow reached 
 that level or repressed.  can wish though.  less sadness than madness.  keep 
 mind from wandering to that avenue somehow.  books?  no hope; seeps in 
 through characters or understanding.  video games?  not a chance; reminder 
 that most (oops there goes that able to relate subject again.  sorry) don't 
 partake and even though i don't feel the same about her, laura croft 
 everywhere.  guitar?  nope; not good enough to be in a band to be noticed, 
 definitely not looking enough to sing.  sports?  haha. 

        so what then?  no vices to distract.  So infatuate.  all about 
 infatuation.  two to three current right now.  none of them will ever know 
 though.  what good or harm would that cause anyway?  don't think could give 
 up as infatuations if tried.  even if decision came and boldness.  boldness 
 never.  end of the world maybe.  and if it worked, would be saddened by the 
 loss of the other two.  actually all three.  one that worked not supposed to 
 be an infatuation anymore.  love, whatever that means takes over.  causes 
 too much... to much something.  so hold on to the infatuations for a 
 ridiculous amount of time.  fortunate to actually be longing. 

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 anada238 by SlainElf                                                (c) 2000 
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