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July 6th, 1999
Dear Miriam,
Where to start where to begin? Maybe I should cop to something I
did, and I hope you'll forgive me, because it was a lie, but not really that
big of one. Some of the people I said hated me, in my last letter, really
don't. Some of them in fact, are very good friends. But you know, dramatic
license, and what not, everybody must give something back for something they
get. So I lied a little, just for the sake of verbosity.
But I did not lie when I said it wasn't the corporal realm that
interested me. For sure, that's part of it, but that ain't all of it. In
fact that ain't even most of it. I didn't lie when I said I could see you
through the veil. I can see the river from the trees, and the difference is
nothing, but that doesn't mean a thing. I don't know, maybe I come on a
little too strong, but that's only because I have a direct universal
imperative driving me. It demands that I write to you.
A lot of people, so they say, don't believe in God. Particularly
among the young. If you notice, even in the rank and file of such a fine
institution as HOE, there are quite a few iconoclastic jokes. And Jesus is
always the punchline. You know the type: "Hey guess what I just fucked?"
"What?" "Jesus! hahahaah!:"
The sad thing of course, is that this iconoclasm only implies a
genuine and real belief in the things you would skewer. The parenthetical
you, of course, my dear. If a person believed Jesus to be without efficacy
and meaning, it wouldn't be the punchline, and so and so forth, and some may
claim it's got something to do with social parody, but we all know what a
crock of shit that is.
Even sadder, as we all realize, is that these people will,
eventually, return to the fold. As life turns cold and people start dying,
as the haze of youth clears, people will come back to the faith, and perhaps
an even greater blasphemy than their youthful indiscretion. They will not
worship out of a profound relationship with God, but rather out of fear and
out of chore, and that isn't belief at all, but just another venal activity,
like eating or shitting. T'aint no different.
With your sheets like metal. and your belt like lace. and your deck
of cards missing the jack and the ace.
But I have a true belief in God, or so I hope. I do not worship as a
chore, but I worship as an instrument of faith, and I worship out of
thanksgiving. There isn't a lot to gives thanks for, and a lot of people
don't have food on the tables, but they've got forks and they've got knives,
and they've got to cut *something*.
Mainly, though, I thank God for his deliverance of you. Warwick will
never be the same, not now, not with this burning knowledge of your
existence occupying. You have been brought into the world, and in you I
find the best evidence of a benign and forgiving creator.
You are the penicillin of my infection, but it is my soul infected,
not the body.
With your childhood flames on your midnight rug, and your Spanish
manners, and your mother's drugs, and your cowboy mouth, and your curfew
plugs.
Perhaps in my earlier letter I came off as a bit too contrived, as if
I was somehow joking, and you believed that I did not exhibit the sincerity
one would expect in such an undertaking. If this is the case, then I humbly
apologize, and ask that you forgive this contemptible wretch, who is humble
before God. If my manner did offend or confuse, I can only offer the
explanation that I am an odd fellow. I have tried to keep the affair more
restrained in this epistle. I do not want you to think me a frivolous sort,
thought it might seem it.
I wish only to impart the absolute severity and earnestness of these
letters. There is no fallacious material or messages being presented. Only
that which has been called Truth.
It's not a bad way to make a living. And I ain't complaining. For I
can blow my plum and drink my rum and go on home and have my fun.
It's something like the collective unconscious, which is a much
maligned and ill understood theory. I don't know how else to describe it,
because it seems more like racial memory than anything else. Here I am, a
seemingly OK guy, and all of sudden I'm turned all retarded at this one
sight. Why? Something in the distant past, distant distant. Something
other worldly. But I've got to face the shadow and descend into the water.
In closing, dear Miriam, I hasten to add that you should contact me.
I do not know how much longer I can go on like this, without affecting a
profound change, and the sun is eclipsed every once in a while, and then
it's the *moon* everybody has to worry about. I've got an email address,
you know, it's something like: jarett@tregar.com. You might send something
there, or you might not. Think about it.
It's a wicked life, but what the hell, everybody's got to eat. I am,
Yours Truly,
Jarett Kobek
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