The Discordant Opposition Journal Issue 01 File 07

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::: The Discordant Opposition Journal ::: Issue 1 - File 7 ::: 
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:Mindless Ranting: 

[This came in as a mail and we were asked to publish it as a 
letter, but on reading it we thought it good enough to be 
printed] 

 The dull monotonous life I lead is deplorable. I get up at  
some, excuse the cliche, un-godly hour and set into motion the  
mindless gears that drive me through the day without the need 
for me to be awake or in anything other than a comatosed state. 
I drudge through the day without feeling for the lives that I 
may just possibly effect. Harm, enrich - does it matter ? Isn't 
all change good, any type of change ? I meaninglessly pour my  
feelings onto paper. Large, vivid emotions reduced to nothing 
more that dull rantings on plain white paper. An intense lack 
of anything better to do and a compulsion to work forces me  
into this slumber-like state of flat 2d sensations. Not dynamic, 
not alive, But dead, rotting emotions. My depression is not 
only inward, but expressed in everything I do. The One that 
keeps me sane and the single, doubtful thought 'I do that same 
for Her' keeps my wrists intact... 

    -Mindless Ranting of Paranoid Dementia 
     Anon