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Luna Digizine Isue 05
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Luna Digizine Volume 2, Issue 1 - Copyright Gerritt Baer / Luna 1996
Luna is a textfile publication that may be distributed freely, anywhere,
in any form as long as the contents herein remain unchanged.
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(A) %% welcome
Hi there, I'm feelin awfully ho-hum this issue, not all that great.
I just realized I'm not perfect, but no matter how hard I try, I will
always be put down for not reaching *their* expectations.
Boy, this is just one of those depressing moods, maybe i'll be in a
better one next issue. I dunno, who knows, not me? do you know? Cause
I'd sure like to know myself.
Start reading before I drag you anymore down.
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%% table of contents
A :: welcome
1 :: she saved my life, again - part 2 -- (story)
2 :: nothings right -- (poem)
3 :: motivational dogma -- (comment)
Z :: closing
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(1) %% she saved my life, again - part 2
damn, it wasnt her. i should have figured anyway, i *knew*, back in
the back of my head it wasnt. but why did i continue? why?
there are so many i see each day, the young girls who have crushes,
the older girls who want older guys .. and then theres the aquantence who
you know from some passing moment, or perhaps longer. she is not perfect
for me, but she looks up to me. am i settling for an imperfect girl for
loss of the perfect one gone? or is it love, disguised behind a clever
mask of blemishes and imperfections?
whatever it is i wish it would reveal itself.
either way, i couldnt address her upfront, this is odd, this is much
to uncomfortable .. is this for real? in a world of plastic people and
perfect love she would be nothing, and yet, she expects nothing more
from me, then me. she doesnt give up for loss of a massive build and
great smile. its a shame im so picky, this would be much easier.
no matter how i dress it up, love can not be fabricated and it cant
ever meet my expectations. whatever love is, its to deep and to far
from me to even begin to understand. but for now, i must meet my innate
instinctual passion for female companionship. for i have locked myself
into an iron box, and ever so badly wish to get out .. to meet her.
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(2) %% nothings right
i lied, i cheated, i stole
my life means nothing .. anymore
i cant get anything right, until now
make me change, make me right
make me strong, make me fight
for my own establishment, of right & wrong
ive been messing up, in the biggest ways
now i live for nothing
but that which i live to please
cant stop pleasing them
gotta start pleasing me
ive dug myself this pit
and thrown myself on in
and locked my casket up
and lost my self inside
nothings right, but nothings wrong
nothing there to make me strong
nothing is what i fight for now,
not for me, i fight for nothing.
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(3) %% motivational dogma
Ok, the 10 commandments should be followed .. agreed. However, im
begining to become seriously angry at the communist regime the US is
becomming. Why is it, that if I want to start a busniess in a small
town, with my own money, the goverment should be involved? Why should
I have to sign 10,000 papers and pay 70% tax/funds on stuff I don't have
any will to pay for in the first place? losers.
And what about schooling. Why should I be paying for some stupid
ingrate wigger kid to go to school while my son/daughter is in a private
school or homeschooling? And if I were sending him/her to a public
school, why should I pay you to mold his morals & values? Your values
and morals are worth shit, values are taught in the home, not from some
faggot from San Fransisco. losers.
The goverment shouldn't run the people, the people should run the
goverment. Liberal shroom eatin crazies shouldn't be.
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(Z) %% closing
blah blah blah, blah blah. yawn..
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eeyore (gerritt baer) can be contacted via email (oceans@gate.net)
or snailmail (1189 hillsboro mile #6, hillsboro beach fl 33062).
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