Addendum Issue 005

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· 5 years ago

  

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 Addendum                                   Issue# 5  -  17th February 2002 
 URL: http://members.optushome.com.au/addendum/ 
 Author : Steak 
======================= Coffee, rats and monkeys =========================== 
I'm sitting in phoenix's living room. Typing on a Pentium 90 in dos mode, 
on edit with no word rap drinking copies amounts of coffees, with old plates 
of food littering the floor that phoenix refuses to clean up and rats running 
wild along the floor. On top of that the fucking space bar only some times 
works causing me to go back along my typing to change "goback" to "go back" 
every now and again. 

And sitting here I realize that I cannot see myself as anything other than a 
human. I want to so much, I am not ashamed to tell you that I sometimes sit 
at home naked looking at myself in the mirror and wanting to see just 
another species of ape but all I see is a human. 

Tired, coffee, swig, drink, swallow, write 

I feel that I am in no way different from an ape, and that i should be able 
to recognize myself as such but I have tremendous difficulty doing so. I look 
and all I can see is (relative) sophistication and (somewhat) intelligence 
and I want to see a wild animal. 

Maybe it is because of conditioning, I have always thought of myself as 
human and it is hard to shake off the feeling and see myself as anything 
else. 

Tired, coffee, swig, drink, swallow, write 

If i could see myself as a ape then perhaps I would be at piece with myself 
and i would not need to show my feelings to the world in the form of an 
ezine. 

Tired, coffee, swig, drink, swallow, write 

Anyway enough of me 

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 Addendum                                   Issue# 5  -  17th February 2002 
 (C) Steak & Phoenix February 2002 
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